I hate blind & empty faith. Like the faith i put into the whole rave "scene". Fuck it. Its all about PLUR yea? I fuckin wish. Jeez i sound like i've got a nice case of clubbers comedown, but fuckin i didn't take any drugs. I wish i could say that it was all about place love unity and respect - no one follows these damn ideals. Its all about hedonism and self-love. Theres nothing wrong with that, but everything is wrapped up in this fake image of idealism and hope. Am i done with the rave scene? No. Its got some plus sides - its an excellent place to fuck yer brain. I really cant think of a better place to take drugs. Too bad i don't really use any more.

Lets think about what i did in this nice blind 6 month run with this great concept and idealism. I've been introduced to an excellent genre of music. Made some great friends and strengthened bonds with existing ones. I've discovered PLUR and actually understand it (i think). I've seen an OD and witnessed some absolutely horrible behavior. I've paid $3 bucks for a small bottle of water. I traveled hundreds of miles and spend well over a hundred bucks to have a horrible time in the middle of bloody nowhere. I've placed holes in my brain and enjoyed every minute of it.

AND THE WHOLE EXPERIENCE WAS GREAT

In other news from mateos life:

I'm going home this weekend! Sweet - get to see the folks and reno crew. Thats pretty exciting. School is almost done, thats very exciting. I've been getting tons of compliments on my new haircut - thats way exciting. My marathon 3.5 hour ochem review session was awsome.

Everything here is going great.
Mateo