sigh
i'm in a fucking funk
i hate feeling this way...

i'm really not that bad, i'm just apprehensious about the future. yes...it is official, in less than 9 months mateo will be a college graduate! grrrr. i'm not ready...oh yeah, did i mention that i hate my major? grrr not really, but i'm not taking any chem classes that i'm interested in so i'm just getting more and more jaded towards chemistry every day. this summer certianly didn't help and my research position i have now isn't that much fun either...oh well

so now i'm trying to figure out what the hell i'm gonna do after this year...
here are my ideas so far:
1. Find a job in Spain/England/Europe
This idea sounds good, but i'm not sure if i'm quite ready to move to europe for an extended period of time just yet. But i think it would be awfully fun, if someone came with me...
2. Go to Chemistry Grad School
This idea sounds not so good lately, i don't think i'll be doing this one any time soon
3. Go to Education Grad School
Become a teacher! Fun! If i can get funding (scholarships) for this i think i just might...
4. Get a job
hmmmm, maybe?
5. Join the peace corps
i don't think so...yet...

once we get internet in our house i'll be posting on here alot more often, but for now i can only do it on campus every so often, so i dont' update so often...but soon...soon :D