i keep thinking about great things to write about; the current state of the world, some sort of amazing realization about the dearth (i love that word) of personal responsibility in United States' society, how i am able to be completely enamored with life and this world and yet at the same time be completely disgusted and horrified by it, but i never seem to be near something to write with. i try to store a tidbit of this information so i can write about it later in the day or week, but this never seems to work.

walking through the peppermill (casino) last night something was made evidently clear to me. i had noticed this before, but it wasn't until we were walking out that i really noticed it. the casino was having a promotion called peppermillions (clever, eh?). Pretty much they were drawing random people's names to win from 100 to 1,000,000 dollars. as we were leaving a few hundred people were gathered around the promotions area (not so many by vegas standards, but for reno, quite a good crowd, so it appeared pretty packed) waiting for their name to be called. Each person's face was a mixture of desperation, boredom and dispondency. And yet, each had a pinch of hope. Inside each person was screaming, "me me me!!!" but in the end nearly each of which was to be dissapointed. This made it abudently clear to me, people in casinos are rarely ACTUALLY having fun (i've actually known this for years, but something like this made it so obvious i had to write about it). Next time you're at a casino, look around. No smiles, no excitement, none of the things you see in adverts for casnios. (okay, this isn't exactly true, but for 95% of people in casinos you can see this, right?) How did this image of fun, excitement, class (look at people in casinos! def. not classy) get perveyed? it is all a bunch of bullshit.

anyways, nevada is treating me well. two days of boarding is a great way to spend my weekend. i might (probably will) go up for a half day tommorow as well. it is cool because i'm improving quite a bit. actually, i'm not improving that much, but i'm becoming more confident (esp at higher speeds), which is good because that is what i will need to become better. i will try to take a lesson sometime (i never have taken a boarding lesson). damn, i've gotta get up to mammoth before the season is over - otherwise my brief stint in public nudity will be all for naught. nah. that is a lie. the rush of streaking in a half filled lecture hall is definately worth it - adreline - one of the best highs ever - you get all shakey, me like.