this week(and end) has reminded me of the only significant amount of time i've spent in a relgious space in my adult life. jamie and i spent the better part of a few hours in the local church taking a calculus exam. interesting? since i was young (even from the time i was still going to synagogue) science and logic (well, mathematics, numerical logic, yes?) were my god. maybe my spiritual upbringing, consisting mostly of secular gift-based versions of the major holidays, the weekly trip to the liberal synagogue in town and the ever-fun dual religion parents doomed me to the demons of semi-atheism? i trust in my dual god of science and math. it doesn't offer all the answers, but isn't that the point of faith? you believe, isn't that enough? i don't Believe all the time, sometimes i feel something lacking where a spiritual support would (might) help. again, isn't that the point of faith?

on occasion i feel almost jealous of the fold. faith (in just about any form) has been an admirable quality in my eyes. i suppose the faith is there, just not in quite the same way?

this was partially brought on by question jamie brought up over the few days she and cheryl were visiting. i suppose i should be writing about the fun we had while they visited, but i've just started (and nearly finished) 'hey nostradamus!' yet another douglas coupland tale of modern life. here we've got a lot of god talk and it is shaping up to be one of the better in his collection. speaking of mr. coupland i bought my sister a copy of 'generation x' (previously recommended on this blog). i think this book (or one or two others) will forever be one of my backup gifts to give people. rob (to the rescue) asked me this question a few years back, 'if you have to buy someone a book, what do you get?' the question asking what this generic present would be. hrm.

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more on the visit later