backing up my hard drive for the first time ever. somehow i've made it through almost 10 years of computer usage to never have a hard drive shit out on me. pretty lucky i guess. and just why did i pick now, rather than continue praying that the clicky, whirring sounds from my laptop were, er, normal, you ask? nothing like having so little space on your computer that you can't even upload any more photos because you're hard drive is so loaded with crap - by crap of course i refer to my undeletable collection of music (half of which i've listened to maybe once), lame college papers, piles of shitty phographs (of course there are a few good ones here or there), decent college papers, piles of resumes/cover letters/failed attempts at getting gainful employment, a recipe storing program that i've used once, when i downloaded it (it now has 5 recipes that i already know inside and out), dreamweaver (still don't know how to use), illustrator (barely know how to use), final cut pro (love to use, never do), sample midterms for my students and all sorts of other shite i'll never use again.

why are we so married to our data?

now the astute reader would have noticed that my above list omitted the one crucial item present in every internet connected male's hard drive, that is of course, pornography.

i refuse to believe any guy who claims otherwise. even if it hasn't been actively saved by yourself (keep believing those lies kiddo), just by being connected your computer practically has porn. it is there. it has to be. but me? no. of all my shitty data that i'm leaving to the HD gods, i have no porn! impossible you say? it is true. how's that? i backed that up ages ago.

::smirk::

christ, what's that say about me?

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one month to go.

stuff to learn from scratch:
CNS Gross Anatomy
Fetus/Mother Circulation/Anatomy

stuff to relearn:
constant boiling azeotropes/raoult's law
methods of ochem seperations

stuff to gain confidence in:
every-fucking-thing

i've lost the fear. this is good. no fear = confidence.